Hoping it's the last

So I am hoping to finish up my Kyle story. I know people don't care, but I am doing it more for me so I can remember some day. After Kyle was born his lungs were not developed, so he was not breathing. We were very blessed to have the kid's doctor there. He thought he was coming for a simple thing of just getting kyle ready to hand over to Texas Children's. So after Kyle was born they didn't tell us much at all, but we knew something was wrong. They pulled Kyle and Richard out of the room at this point to finish up with me. I only got to see kyle for a spilt second, after that they took me to the recovery room. My body went into shock and I couldn't get warm at all. The ended up putting drugs into my IV to try and bring me out of shock. I spent a great deal of time praying and knowing things would turn out the way they were meant to. At one point in time I was reading my scriptures, on my phone because besides my purse it was the only other thing I took with me. I just opened me phone and started reading at the first place I came to, which happened to be a scripture that I loved in college. "Without the Lord I am nothing" During this time Dr. Glass was our hero and spent an hour and half to two hours bagging Kyle because they couldn't get the tube to stay in him to breathe. The nurses told me that Dr. Glass is not one to get mad, but he was on the phone yelling at the children's hospital to get there. They have better equipment to deal with these things. Around 3:30 he came in and told us that he had finally gotten a tube in Kyle and he was stable for the time. The children's hospital arrived about this time to get him. They loaded him up and got ready to take him away. I did get to see him for a minute as they wheeled him away. They let Richard go with them and he had nothing at all. So two ambulances and one jet later thy made it to Houston. As soon as they got there, his breathing tube failed. But they were in a place where they could take care of it right away. We were very blessed to have family be able to drop everything and come help us. Kyle spent a month in Houston while we went back forth to see him. They spent almost a week making sure his lungs were strong enough to do surgery, we still had to bowel problem to deal with. The Thursday after he got there, they did his surgery. I kissed him and said bye at 1:47. We were told it would take around 3 hours, as long as everything went well. So we waited and then decided to get something to eat really fast. We came back and waited some more. Around 5:45 I started to get worried. I knew nothing would go wrong, but you start second guessing yourself. Around the time that they were taking Kyle back to his pod area I got a feeling that it was all done and everything was ok. Soon after that we were able to see him. It is the hardest thing knowing that your child is going through all of this and you can not do anything. They ended up cutting about 10% of his small intestines out. We then spent the next three weeks working towards getting him home. They had to get him off the O2 and then eating milk before he could come home. We had several set backs, but were able to bring him home the second day school started. I never had to chance to breastfeed him before he left, so I just hoped he would take to it and he did. We were very blessed and had a great deal of blessings happen to us along the way. I had received a blessing during the summer when I was at my parents. The whole time I hoped that they would say it was all a mistake and I would have a normal healthy boy. But I was told that things would work out and the doctors would be able to see what they needed to see and do what they needed to do. Looking back, all of this did happen and we were very blessed to have good doctors and nurses who listened and were able to save my cute baby. I am so thankful for everything and for the fact that Heavenly Father let me keep my baby. I know this is long and I am sorry, but I really wanted to be able to tell Kyle about this someday and I know there will be something I will forget. So now I have finished up my story and you all do not have to bored by it any more.